It’s been a while, so I thought it would be time to update my blog.
A lot has happened since my last update: good things and bad things. I don’t want to bore you with all the details, so here is a list of what happened in the past months.
(If that’s still too much to read for you, scroll down to the bottom for a summary)😉
As for my bodily changes: I gained some weight (about 10 pounds), and my body looks more feminine now. Boobs still growing.
And emotionally… it’s going up and down. I can be very happy at times, and at times all I can do is cry all day.
Last month I finished my Real Life Phase (a period of 12 months in which you start taking hormones and you have to live full time as a woman). That means that I’m on the waiting list for the operation right now! Yay! The waiting list is about a year, but in a couple of weeks I get my first appointment with the surgeon for a sort of intake.
I fell in love with a girl.
In another blog I mentioned that my preference regarding men or women might change due to the use of the hormones. I can tell you now: it hasn’t changed! She has made (and still is making) me feel so alive and happy… Only problem: it’s not mutual. She wants to be just friends, and in the past couple of months I’ve been trying to get over her. Which is very, very hard, especially with the hormones, and considering that we see each other a lot.
(In addition this, I officially came out to my family as a lesbian. )
I got a new hobby: partying! Before I started hormones, I was pretty boring. Didn’t go out much, and if I did, I would mostly just stand in the corner, sip my drink, hate all the people around me, and go home at 1 am. Now, however, I love to dance and meet new people, and it happens quite often that I’m in bed by 6 am…
(Considering the things I mentioned above, you could say that I’m back in puberty. I also got 2 piercings in my ears (for those interested: a scaffold a.k.a. industrial, and a tragus). And I think these won’t be the last. My mom isn’t too happy with that :p )
As I said, I like meeting new & interesting people, and that’s what I’ve been doing. I met a lot of new people, some of whom I consider to be good friends now.
Last August, I did a fantastic road trip! On my own, in my little Ford Ka, 2200 miles through England and Wales. I climbed mountains, went down into caves, saw waterfalls, cliffs and beaches. I visited cathedrals, abbeys and ancient towns and cities. Slept in B&B’s, a hotel, a tent, and with friends. Went to a folk festival and the 2012 Olympic Games. And I met some really nice people and made wonderful new friends.
I lost my job. Due to cutbacks, I was one of the people in my company who got fired. I’ll be out of work in 2 weeks, and I have no idea what I want to do next… So that kinda sucks…
I am planning to move back to Maastricht. I lived there for 6 years, until 2010. I then moved out, because of my work. I thought the new town would be ok, and in the beginning it was. But now, almost 3 years later, I hate living here. I don’t like the people, I have no friends here, and I miss Maastricht and my friends there. I try to go there as often as possible, but finding a place to live there would be fantastic. So I am currently looking for a nice apartment in Maastricht, so that I don’t have to travel there 2 or 3 times a week.
Hormones are going great: body is changing and emotions are raging.
Counting down to surgery!
Love life: sucks.
I love to go out & party with my friends.
I have to find a new job.
I hate the place where I live right now, so I want to move asap.
So I guess you can say my life is pretty hectic at the moment…